Rambling.......

I was sitting here and enjoying the silence of the house. My husband went back to bed to see if he could rest some more, because he stayed up to late. my youngest is still sleeping and the others are at school. I started thinking about what i might have been had I made different choices in my life. When I was a child I wanted to be a doctor. Not like that is going to happen now. I am 34 with 5 kids and have been married for 13 years. My time has already come and gone. I have thought about writing a book, yet I can not even get the first part of it. I love to read, yet I know I will never find a job where I can do that for a living. Time is running out for me is the only thing my mind keeps telling me. I need to find a job for myself this fall, yet I do not want to go back to the dead end ones I did before I stayed home with my kids. yet the job market here is so poor that I have no clue what the hell I am going to do...